Is it possible that after more than a decade at OSP, I’ve gotten too comfortable in my work environment? Why the hell else would I justify getting my ass kicked by Pietra Rey by telling the newbie that I was on my period?! Maybe I should have started complaining about my cramps to Sabatino—that probably would have shut him up, or at a minimum weirded him out. Where does he get off mocking Deeks when my partner’s not there, especially when he’s wearing his hair in that sorry excuse for a pigtail? Plus, I think he’s a bad luck charm; this is twice in a row now that I’ve ended up pinned down by enemy fire while working with Sabatino. Going to have to think carefully about how to mention that to Deeks the next time we talk.
Speaking of talking, once again Deeks wasn’t around when I got to use my Portuguese, which I know he loves to hear. O meu pobre bebé. He was so down on himself today and I wish I could do more than try to cheer him up with some silly jokes. I’m beginning to worry that he’s becoming depressed because of his struggles at FLETC on top of all of his other perceived “failures.” And he’s clearly feeling responsible for our trouble conceiving. We’re going to have to talk about this again, hopefully once he’s graduated from FLETC and is feeling better about himself. I hate that he’s going to be away for so much longer…I really wish I could just wrap myself around him and let him take some comfort and strength from me.