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Difficult Line to Cross: Kensi’s Journal 3/29/2020


Deeks and I have spent so long discussing and trying to figure out when to leave NCIS because it’s been such a difficult line for me to cross.  So how did I not see that Nell seems to have stepped completely over that line?  What kind of friend am I?  I know she’s been troubled because of her mom’s health and her concerns about her relationship with Eric, but I had no idea Nell’s been struggling with work as well.  Shouldn’t I have known something was wrong—I see her every day!  And I can’t imagine that not being the case anymore, which another reason I think her announcement shocked me so much.  So much that I wasn’t as supportive as I could have been.  I was planning to apologize and offer actual support (you know, along the lines of “You need to do what’s best for you, Nell, and we’ll always be friends”) at the bar later but she never showed or answered her cell.

Speaking of apologies, I owed and delivered one to Deeks tonight (his favorite kind, in the bedroom!) for my lack of support of him too.  (Not a good trend, Kens.)  Of course he didn’t think he deserved it.  He understood that I was still a little unnerved by the fear that he’d been in the car that had blown up when I first arrived at the scene, and that we were in public and I couldn’t exactly kiss him and make it all better right then and there.  We did enjoy kissing and making it better later on, though!  Deeks had no idea about Nell’s revelation (which I’m sure added to my stress level), and I hope he won’t be annoyed at me for keeping that from him, but she did ask for it to stay between us.  Guess I’ll just have to make that up to him too 😉.

I reached out to Fatima today in an effort to make up for my lack of awareness with Nell.  I like her a lot and am glad she fits in well with the team.  I wonder if she’s going to replace Nell in ops (not that anyone really could) until a permanent person is found—she’s pretty adept up there.  Still not sure about Agent Roundtree, though.  He seems nice enough, and has found a friend for life in Deeks if he keeps up all the great word-play.  And I know he’s still relatively new, but he’s still an FBI agent who graduated from FLETC and should have known better than to sit in that car if for no other reason than it was evidence.  Deeks didn’t want to hear that Devin’s mistake almost cost both of them their lives; he’d much rather take that responsibility on himself.  But I tried my best to set him straight once I heard the whole story.  Hopefully he won’t pull back from working with Roundtree again; Deeks has a lot to share with less experienced field agents.  Devin (and Fatima) should benefit from it as much as possible before we follow in Nell’s footsteps.

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Turns out I've been writing fan fiction since before it was a "thing" on the internet (okay, even before there was an internet). I spent many a boring junior high history class coming up with more exciting stories for my favorite soap opera characters. I continue to enjoy the creative outlet it provides in my still-boring but now adult life.

5 Comments on Difficult Line to Cross: Kensi’s Journal 3/29/2020

  1. Very good!
    BTW, found out today both Hetty and Nell are sticking around for S12!
    Yeah, the new FBI dude is still suspicious to me as well. he’s ambitious, but that job requires a lot of risk, and smarts!

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  2. theultimatetvfangirl // April 8, 2020 at 9:12 AM // Reply

    Unrelated: TV Guide’s newest issue has plenty of info on the rest of this season, and even some insight as to what the finale was actually supposed to be about.

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  3. I can’t say I’m surprised about Nell leaving or taking time off or whatever it is. Hasn’t she been dropping hints for awhile? I wasn’t happy or understood why agent Roundtree was sent out with Deeks for training. I guess the writers thought it was a great idea to pair them together that almost got them killed. Kensi wasn’t exactly showing her concern with Deeks. But I did enjoy the episode and the wonderful writing of Kensy’s Journal by one of the finest writers in fanfiction. wikiDeeks forever

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  4. Thanks Ewaguy. I can only imagine Deeks was sent out with Roundtree for much the same reason Kensi’s been teamed with Fatima–it makes no sense to pair the veterans together and pair the newbies together. And for all his talk about wanting to train the next generation of OSP agents, I guess Sam’s more concerned with his love life right now (sorry, some residual bitterness is carrying over from “Knock Down” I think, lol). Let’s hope Kensi really did show Deeks more concern when they got home! 🙂

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