March 23, 2015
I’m really worried about Deeks. The day started out weird enough when we saw that strange woman taking pictures of us at the park and it didn’t get any better. If Hetty would stop being so secretive and just tell us what is going on instead of making us figure it out on our own, maybe things wouldn’t be so complicated around here. When she split us up this morning, I was sure we were being punished again. What would it have hurt to tell us what she knew? I guess I will never understand her motivations.
I’m at home tonight… alone. Deeks wanted to defy Hetty and the LAPD but I convinced him we needed to do what she says until we can figure out exactly what is going on. She said LAPD Internal Affairs was “hunting” and I’m sure they can manufacture anything they want as long as they can manipulate it to suit their case.
The worst part of it all is that he knows what this is about. I’m sure of it. He’s not angry, not being pro-active in trying to find out information and most of all, he’s not defending himself or professing his innocence in any way. He told us there were no deep dark secrets but there must be something and it must be really bad if he won’t even tell me. I can’t imagine what it could be but unfortunately I can imagine what it would be like to lose my partner and the thought terrifies me. We have to get through this because the alternative is absolutely unacceptable.
How can I be supportive and help him figure this out if we are supposed to stay apart? I just know that IA woman had better stay out of my face or she might find herself on the ground!