Lord, I can’t sleep. So many bad nightmares going back to another time but it still feels like it was just yesterday. All I keep seeing are the faces of those women stolen in the middle of the night and thrust into a life that makes all my nightmares seem like fairytales. Ten years ago I went deep undercover to break up a human trafficking operation that almost got me killed. That’s the day I learned to trust Hetty and the team with my life. Despite it all, I would do it again to save just one more girl from this fate worse than death. Why do we do this to each other, why is money worth so much more than an innocent life? Today brought all those bad dreams to the surface all over again. It never ends does it? Every time I want to plead with Kensi for us to get out of this business, it’s days like today that pull me back it. It gives me hope that evil will never win and good will always triumph. I just got to believe that. And so I get suckered back in again and again.
I look down at Kensi who is sleeping peacefully besides me knowing that she has lived another day that counted in the great scheme of things. I get it. We live each day to fight the good fight….the righteous fight. I can’t give that up just not yet. I only hope there are enough angels out there to watch over us and keep us safe. Because one day we’re going to need them!