Therapy Time? Deeks Surf Log 5/16/21

God she is so stubborn!  Of course it’s one of the reasons I love about her but it’s also one of the reasons why she drives me crazy!  Kensi can’t keep carrying this on her shoulders especially since she won’t talk to me. I don’t know what scares me more…Kessler coming after her or Kensi never becoming a mother. I think the latter may devastate her. 

As much as I worry about her mental stability (hence the suggestion of a therapist), I’m worried about our marriage too.  When she stops laughing at my jokes I know we’re in trouble. She looks at me with so much anger and sadness. I know it hurts but It hurts me too. Jeez,maybe I need to see a therapist as well. 

Just as I was ready to make that call to find a shrink,  Kensi reached the breaking point and realized it would be best to put the baby quest on hold. Thank God! She even wants to explore adoption!  What started out as a crap morning turned into a miracle. I kept saying all day long it will be ok and now I believe that. Despite Kessler and baby woes, we will be ok.