Let’s Do It For Us: Drabble 4/27/23

“Oh, good thing we’ve been working out,” Deeks said, laughing in between short breaths while Kensi collapsed on top of him. He could feel her heart pounding against his chest.

He curled an arm around Kensi’s back, tucking her more securely into his body, and gently trailed his fingers along her skin. It was almost funny how he’d convinced himself that he wasn’t craving this side of their relationship.

“You know, I was thinking about what you said.”

Deeks turned his head slightly towards Kensi, his chin pressing into her cheek as he continued stroking her back. “About not needing romance? Cause, that was one of the more idiotic things I’ve said.”

Kensi fumbled around until she found his shoulder, and gripped it, her hand warm and firm. “Babe, you’re not an idiot. Actually, I meant what you said about wanting to spend as much time with Rosa as possible. And, of course we still want to have time for us.”

“We’ll make the time,” Deeks promised. “Now that we know it’s an issue, we’ll know what to watch out for.”

“I know we’ll try.” Her fingers found his cheek, carding up into his hair. “But that’s always the problem, isn’t it? We make plans, we have the best intentions, and then something comes up. A bomb, a missing person, or some other catastrophe.”

“Yeah, but that’s always been a concern,” Deeks agreed. One they’d decided to deal with for the time being.

“Maybe I was wrong,” Kensi whispered.

Deeks frowned, not sure he’d her correctly, and definitely uncertain what she was talking about.

“Kens, what’s going on?” He nudged her chin until she turned to face him.

“Maybe thinking that we can both stay with NCIS and meet all of our needs as a family and as a couple, isn’t realistic. Rosa shouldn’t have to feel like an afterthought every time something comes up and I hate missing out on so many key moments in her life,” she said, eyebrows furrowed. “Maybe I need to consider making some changes.”

“Are we talking major changes, the kind that involve careers?” Deeks asked.

“Yeah.” Kensi exhaled quickly. “Yeah, I think so.”

“That’s a lot to consider, especially given our history with the topic.”

“It is.” Kensi cupped his cheeks, her eyes softening with affection and something more melancholic. “But tonight was so… everything I’ve been missing with you, and I can’t go back. I won’t risk our relationship for a job. Not anymore.”

“I love that you’re ready, but, uh, maybe we should have this conversation when we’re not basking in the glow of really amazing sex,” Deeks said, and Kensi tossed her head back, laughing.

“Baby, I’m not going to change my mind,” she said, leaning in to kiss him softly. “I promise.”